Humming along

Mood

My mood and self-esteem were already on a downward trajectory. Today, it’s tanking. I left work early to try and recover.

I am not beating myself up over this. I don’t like how I have to remind myself of that, but it’s good that I said it, if only to assert my moral out loud.

I want to feel guilty about my actions, but I cannot. Everything I am doing is purposeful. I am responding to my emotions, not reacting to them. Each choice I have made, from leaving home early to writing it on here, has been thought through — not necessarily thoroughly, but to a level that is acceptable for me. Because of this, I feel whole, even though I feel like crap.

And that’s all I can ask for on a shitty day like today.