Bleh. Again

Not gonna lie, I totally borked my plans today. I was having one of my self-destructive moods and decided to stay in my room all day.

All I did was watch YouTube and play Story of Seasons. I haven’t taken my meds, drank enough water, nor have I gone to the bathroom. I snacked on Fritos and had the occasional bowl of leftover pancit.

It’s the kind of uncomfortable situation that I am comfortable with. It’s like it’s in my programming. I am trying my best not to be comfortable with it.

I have mentioned before that this daily writing project keeps me from going too far into the deep end. The desire to keep the streak alive negated the desire to do absolutely nothing. I ended up taking a shower, and handle the other bodily functions like eating, before sitting down to write this post.

I am sure that if I didn’t have this blog, I would still be laying in bed — my dirty body lying in my own filth.

Now, I look forward to laying my clean body in my own filth.

I’m going to make it a point to sleep early tonight. Screwing up my sleep schedule has screwed up everything else in my life.

I am aware of it, so I think it’ll happen. There isn’t a point to think that it won’t..