Another short update

Thoughts
Written By Jonar

What happened today:

  • Elden Ring

  • Taco Bell

Extra Thoughts:

I’ve let myself enjoy the things that I want to enjoy, and it’s been nice. It required that I shut off that part of my brain that always needs to do something “productive”.

I think my worry is that I will keep doing the “unproductive” things forever. I’m not sure yet, but I think that won’t be the case. I played Elden Ring for 20 hours this week. That’s a part time job. As much as I like the game, I can already feel myself get sick of it.

What’s keeping me playing at this point is inertia. I don’t want to play so much as I don’t want to think about what I’d rather do. It’s a form of avoidance that I know stems from my CPTSD.

So, I think now that I’ve burned through my desire to play video games, I should take that time to consider what’s next. The more I practice doing that, the less time I will spend doing things I don’t really want to do.

Jonar

Jonar is a writer and a photographer. He has a lot of opinions, many of which are not worth sharing. And yet, here we are.

He also enjoys video games, silly anime, project management, practicing self-care and having a good relationship with himself: flaws and all.

https://jonarisip.com
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